Sunday, August 24, 2014

The more hopeful my future is, the less I find I desire to hold on to my past

My new digs for the next few weeks


So this week I officially moved out of my house and am on to the next phase of my journey which is essentially living out of a suitcase.  I have gotten my wardrobe down to the basics, and now I’m trying it out to see where I can cut even more.  I’m spending all my free time in my condo to finish up all the fixes to get it ready for market.  The plan is to list it right after Labor Day.  As I have been going through my stuff (and getting less and less patient and just wanting to make it all disappear, yes, even me!) I have been really evaluating what I have kept and why.  The traits that make me a good organizer also cause me to keep multiple copies of things just in case.  In case of what?  One great example is pictures.  I was going through pictures on my computer and realized that maybe one out of 20 was really great and the rest were just there for what?  Context?  So I went through and picked out the outstanding ones and deleted the rest.  How many pictures do I need?  Is is sufficient to just have a few outstanding pictures of someone I love and not 200?  As the world moves more into the digital age and information is available more readily on the internet, I find that I am holding on to things far less.  Also, the more hopeful my future is, the less I find I desire to hold on to the past.  That was a big epiphany for me.  I held on to a lot of things from my parents and grandparents, who are all deceased, because that’s what I was taught to do and at the time, it was comforting.  But now that they have been gone for many years I find that I hold the memory of them in my mind and I don’t need all these physical reminders of them.  I still have things I inherited and pictures, don’t get me wrong, but not nearly as many.  But I am glad I took the time to surround myself with those things to help with my grieving.  I believe that our spirit knows when it is ready to let go of stuff, and even though we get impatient, it is important to give ourselves space and grace for healing, adjusting, and spiritual growth.  Even exciting spiritual growth like starting a fresh new life!  

So what’s next?  More wrapping up of details here in Sacramento.  I know you are all curious as to where I am going to go, and I do have some ideas I am looking into, but have not made up my mind.  I will let you know as soon as I find out!  


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